It has been weeks since my last post. I've been too busy and usually, I go to bed at morning. Yes, I attend school with half-eye open, trying all the time not to succumb into slumber.

And I succeed.

Tomorrow's my Admission Exam at UST. I should be reviewing right now but I couldn't focus. Though necessary at the moment, I choose not to because I think that studying bereft of concentration yields nothing. In much simpler words, I'll study later.

Or maybe not at all. Haha.

I'm still thwarted for not winning a specific award. Don't get me wrong, I have NO hard feelings against the frontrunner. I'm just disappointed at myself. I guess I've been expecting much.

Lately, everything is unstable. I'm used to having my life planned out. Now, life has been throwing surprises. What folly.

And my heart has been taking unexpected turns lately.

Ano bang gagawin ko sayo?...

Had two MQTs for today, Physics and Statistics. The Identification part of the Physics MQT left both me and my brain speechless. I even got a -2, probably because I was talking too loud.

Honestly, I find it hard to mellow my voice. Haha.

Advanced Algebra was also scheduled this day but since we haven't had the quiz yet, it was moved. Good timing.

And yes, in case you want to know, I went home with Katrin (I enjoyed her company, at least), since the people I'm supposed to be with didn't wait for me. How nice.

Yesterday was Wellness Program. No classes except for Seniors. I didn't know that doing massage can be so exhausting. But then, I'd rather do that than Foot Spa. There is something unappealing to me whenever that gets mentioned.

Did I say? I bought Rant and Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk. Just started with the former and, though a bit explicit, I'm enjoying it. Once I can, I'd buy Survivor and Choke too. Never mind the other books I want. They can wait.

It's 3 AM. Sometimes, the finest writings come to me at such wee hours.



Guilty.

I'm happy. A lot of things happened yesterday that I didn't expect. Thank you to Hartmann who made my day extra special! :)

Kuya left my DOST application at home. That means it wasn't filed and I lost a shot for a scholarship. He says it's hard when you apply for scholarships at schools themselves so he persuaded me to at least try. Well, now, I'm left with CHED.

The MQTs I had were fine, except for Filipino. LOL. Felt totally pathetic when I was trying to comprehend the questions regarding Talasalitaan. I'm not gonna score very well this time, I think.

Moreover, the killer subjects (Physics, Statistics and Advanced Algebra) are coming next week (and maybe, just maybe, on the same day). Good riddance.

Yesterday was the Culminating Activity for the Science Week. Although our Fashiocycle haven't brought home the bacon, we did win 2nd place "Best Dressed" though. Not bad. And our representatives are REAL good-looking creatures.



United Nations Week is coming. Another time to show-off. Another moment to shine. Good Luck Hartmann!

It's October 09.

1) I'm elated because our Fashiocycle representatives (Ariel, Ysia and Esther) all made the cut. They'll be joining the finals tomorrow. I wish them well.
2) I'm pleased that the Science Month is over. Another event down. Next would be United Nations.
3) I'm relieved that my DOST requirements are complete and it'll be passed tomorrow. Kuya also volunteered to file my UST application.
4) I'm proud of Br. Flavius. The song is plain stunning. Good luck. Also with Br. Hartmann, you all did well.
5) I'm eager for tomorrow. Hartmann, you know why.
6) I'm starving (always is).
7) I'm furious. I'm not a tremendous writer, I know. I don't have that extraordinarily witty pun like other great writers out there but I believe I write fairly well, judging from the readers' verdict. Come on, look at your blog posts (that look similar to mine, just rephrased) and see if you're great writers yourself.
7) I'm a bit despondent. I'm full of questions and still confused.

Imagine having all these mood at the same time. Well, a lot more to be exact. Some are too risky to be mentioned. Oops.

Happy birthday to me. And to everyone born today.

[Something brewed from Photoshop CS4. It's actually 1:30 in the morning and my creative juices are high. Sleep is elusive for now and I think it won't be disturbing until later.]

I'm pretty sure, we've all reached the point when we had to choose between holding on to something/someone and letting it go. Both options present the risk of getting hurt, having your heart broken or giving up the future you want.

Decision-making is a crucial and agonizing process, based on experience. Given our free will, it will and shall always end in us. But once you settled on a preference, everything follows suit.

Just an advice:Think things thoroughly, weigh all options and listen to both your heart and mind.

There's another huge storm (or two?) coming. Please get yourselves all that you need to get through it. The last thing we need is another tragedy.

I'm walking again in the array of imperfections, both trivial and grave.

Today, while using the computer, I began to contemplate about ...

... Ugh. I'm too chicken to say it out. I guess I'm daunted by the fact that *that person* might read this entry. I know it's very unlikely for me not to market the deluge of trivialities I'm often compelled to publish online but now, I suppose I better not.

Or else... *silence*.

Lately, I’ve been trying my best to produce works that I can be really proud of. Unfortunately, I just get frustrated because the pleasurable side of it is quite evasive towards me these days.

I'm losing it. I think I'm getting a magnitude of distractions. Just now, someone from the newspaper asked me about my column. Might be a good place to start.

I am neither finished watching Skip Beat nor reading The Time Traveler's Wife. I'm becoming awfully barren that even two of my favorite hobbies are losing its bite.

Whatever. All I wanted was to just remind everyone about the upcoming storm "Pepeng." Ingat po. :)